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During the days at work, leaving home early and returning late day by day, I felt a lack of my own will out of a feeling of retriction and overwhelming environment, being reprssed and numb. It is just like Sisyphus in Greek mythology, who was punished and had to roll a boulder up a hill for eternity, for him it is in the end futile and helpless. The numbness I felt in life made me have doubt in the existence and wondered if I were shaped by merely work. Yet out of my anxious mind I was urge to find a way out.
The mythology of Sisyphus became the origin of my creation. Same roads I was accustomed to are just like the boulder that was rolled repeatedly. Nevertheless, when I changed my thinking and extented my observation and imagination, I found new perspectives in those things around me that I thought I was accustomed to. The whole process and the new findings led me to think of certain moments in the past and to unlid the memories that were long sealed.
During the process of observation, the feeling of numbness for work became a feeling of sentiment for the time passed. However, I became to adapt a different thought while thinking of the film 'Interstellar'. Originally, I thought the passed time was never again retrievable. Yet in 'Interstellar' the concept of a fifth dimension is mentioned, with which the image of the past could be recurred. Once the dimension is opened, the image in the past could be scanned while hauling among timeline as it were a vedio-playing program. The series of creation if me practicing the dimension with my imagination by retrieving the time passed via every paintings. All these paintings are a reminder that the past is never gone.
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