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During childhood, my father’s sudden serious breakdown is a gradually fading but yet possible disconnect clue. For me, the importance of this event is not simply about how to “remember” or how to “forget”, or to change it into a variety of driving force in order to maintain moving forward — release time — let the gap (wound) heal. But would be more like, let me learn to understand the importance of keep breaking the gap, in order to slowing external speed within the concept of time being dominant by objective rationality. The behavior of keeping break the gap might be a not worth mentioning futile attempt, but it do motivate me keep thinking about the possibilities and differences of a variety of questions what life or imagination gave me, in between two kinds of reactions: “leave a blank” or “write down zero”.
This thesis writing begin with “Another Foreword - Retention and Vacuum”, as a “prerequisite position”, prompted a center, which seemed outside the context of the gravisphere where things interactions — nearly pause — but possibly providing positive meanings toward the future. This position can be recognized not only as “zero”(cannot be defined in calculation) , but can also be recognized as a ubiquitous key element after the start.
First chapter ”Introduction” is divided into two sections, they severally brings out how my past architectural drawing training could re-open the relationships between dimensions and imagination, and the multiple relations between the limitation of body and the field of vision.
Second chapter “Orbit - - Dimensions” is the core of this writing, first section mainly about my childhood events in memory, including father’s death, a personal on the spot historical investigation developed by my past experience wandering around the nearly unmanned street, and unexpected fall among field games. Those events, layer upon layer, deepen my ideas about time and body, past and future, also motivates me to think about the multiple possibilities beyond linear time. Second section, through a personal surgical heart operation, discussing the awakeness of body sensibility — a twined sense of touch which cannot be simply classified “inside” or “outside”. And a “Viewpoint on the edge”, which been forced to seperate, but closely joint with the side of “happening” field”.
Third chapter is about my latest video work “Orbit - Viewpoint Practice”, the writing begins with the spatial differences and relations between “screen” and “window”: two different kinds of perceive mode severally about the visual experience of “to direct see”, and another of “to see with(in) digital tools”, then into the shooting of a back and force orbit movement on “blind” (a closer attempt peeking death dimension), to unfold a aspiration toward future — gazing the past — but simultaneously contain the whole surrounding field of vision at present.
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